Divorce is hard, Lord. I know you know that. I know that you have heard my prayers, have forgiven me for my part in the breakdown of the relationship. Thank you for your mercy! I cannot say it enough! I thank you for making your presence known during this time....I thank you for the answered prayers. I am also grateful for the last year of physical problems and emotional issues, marital problems, and more. I know that these things play a major role in bringing me to my knees, acknowledging your presence and ultimately, hopefully, leading me to a more abundant and blessed life because of it.
But, God, this morning feels dark. I have a lump in my throat and I feel a little alone. And yet....I still feel your presence.....I feel your Spirit. There is a major void in my life and I long for it to be filled. You know my longing, Lord, and I lay it at your feet.Thank you for showing me what you did last night. I had not thought about how far away I had wandered. Could it be that I am no longer saved? After that "message" on the radio I was seriously doubting my salvation and then....well...I think it's just a re commitment that I need because I do "feel" your presence. I feel it in the compassion that I have for others, I feel it in the whisperings of the Holy Spirit that I have all too often ignored.....and I feel it in other ways as well.
Thank you for your blessings. Thank you for providing for the children and myself. I know it is You. God, I am committed to reading my new Bible every day, to reading the devotional book each day, both in the morning and at night. I will also listen to the praise music in the car and at home. I do praise you, Oh God, I praise you for all you have done and all you are doing, not just in my life but in others....I praise You, God, because You alone are worthy!
God, You are so merciful. Thank you for your forgiveness. Thank you for your mercies.... Lately this is the most accurate hymn lyrics that describe how I feel each day, even with the void...
Morning by morning new mercies I see
all that I needed Thy hand hath provided....
Great is Thy faithfulness,
Lord, unto me.
My prayer list:
My children, who also need you in their lives. Please lead us to a church that we can all grow and give in.
My ex because he claims to be agnostic and you know how he feels about Jesus. Lord, help him believe....help him during this period of solitude in our house, which must be lonely, especially with the memories and the echoes of a family....Help him believe in Your Son and that He died on the cross for HIM! Help him as he works through anger and bitterness.
For my friend as he spends his time reconnecting with You also and maybe makes his decision. Let it be between You and him. SHOW him Your way, Oh God, without me, without the idea of losing material things, just with what you want for his future which I know is all good. God, he showed me that You are not found in a box...you are not a recipe that all that is needed is to add milk and eggs and stir. You are so much more than that. You mean for us to ENJOY our lives, to have fun and laugh and play as we also work and share Your message, to lead others to You, to share our gifts. Thank you for this friend, God... I beg of you to give him the clarity he seeks!
God, I have a selfish prayer. I want to be able to sing again....You know how important that was to me as a teenager singing solos and in the choir in school....I LOVE it...and yet I believe the talent/gift is gone now and I wonder if you will help return it...I will use it for your glory and in your honor.
Speaking of which, God, I want to thank you for reminding me that I am Your daughter.....through all of the emotional turmoil, name calling, patronizing things that have been said to me, I have not felt very worthy.
Most of all, God, I knew I was living in sin......and now I want to walk in the light. Thank you for your Spirit who reminded me to listen and follow You and once again, Lord, maybe I will feel worthy of being called Your daughter...although I know NONE of us are worthy of what Jesus did on the cross for us.....what You did when you sent Your son to earth for us....I think of my children, God, and I KNOW that would be the ultimate sacrifice...
Lord, I want to also thank you for your healing touch...thank you, God, for the doctors who are helping me but I know it is You who should and shall receive the glory.....thank YOU.
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